In the last entry, I mentioned that I didn’t take advisory well. Maybe I should learn to take advisory very well. There is one thing I do do: if my head is telling me “no” then I will listen and act upon it. I like to believe I see the best in all people. No matter what. Sometimes, that is a blessing. And at others, it’s a curse.
The past few days, I have wondered “do we all have soul mates?”. And if we do, how do you know? What happens to make us realize that? I met someone who is seemingly all I want in a relationship: he’s attractive, he’s funny, he likes kids, he’s Christian, he likes country. The catch? He has two daughters. My family and friends are advising me against seeing him. I am not one to take advisory well. It makes me wonder if I will be a good parent. I’m not saying that’s where this is headed. But it’s just something I’ve been pondering. He loves his daughters more than anything and that is so beautiful to me. You could say that I like the fact he has kids. I do. Well, that’s something.
I woke up this morning. After having a surprisingly full eight hours of sleep, I was happy, in a GREAT mood. And then the haze settled in. I am a few things: I am happy, I am outgoing, I am caring, I am compassionate… There is one thing I am not: stupid. I am not going to continue caring about someone or something who doesn’t give me the same courtesy.
This is NOT a blog bashing on men. I love men. But, guys, do you have any idea what you want? And when you do know what you want, do you act upon it? Probably not. Please figure it out. Everyone wonders why I “have an affinity towards douchebags”. You want to know why? Because you all have the capability of being ones. No one’s perfect (believe me, I know), but don’t tell me it’s my fault I get hurt because of the guys I pick. It is NOT my fault. It’s all our faults. And another thing, I do not like to be scolded like a two year old. I am twenty years old. I know what is best for me and I know how to take care of myself. Don’t tell me what to do. I am not a child.
I am tired of being the only one who makes an effort in all my relationships. From now on, you want my company, you talk to me.
I’m done.
Have you ever noticed our human fascination with water? I spent three and a half hours this morning in and around a pool. And whenever I am around any body of water, I am happy. Sometimes, I dream that I am a mermaid or a dolphin and I swim for days. Then I get out of the ocean, and allow my skin to brown in the warm sunshine. That would be an ideal life for me. To just swim and bronze my skin during the days. Even the color of water is beautiful. The smell. The touch. I am a very sensory driven person. I am motivated by my five senses. That is my random thought for the day. Aquatic adventures to you all. 🙂
I have twenty one minutes at the beginning of this entry to write it, do other necessary internet things. I set a bedtime goal of 2:45 am for myself. I will wake up at 10:45 am. I need to start getting 8 hours of sleep.
Work exhausts me. Mentally, physically, emotionally. I am constantly fighting my eyelids for consciousness while driving home. And then when I get home, the feeling vanishes. I should read, I should just lie here. But I am not a stationary being. I am very much an active human. Hopping from place to place.
I’ve found myself more and more interested in the current events surrounding our world, especially the Gulf Coast Disaster. This is a perfect example of how human greed and need for little things, such as oil, has come before the lives of other animals and other human beings. What I want to know is this: what is taking BP and the United States’ government so long to fix this leak? Why is it still leaking into the Gulf? Seventy eight days is a very long time, don’t you think? I have been looking at CNN religiously everyday to see if there’s any improvements. Here’s a link I sound helpful: http://www.cnn.com/interactive/2010/05/us/gallery.large.oil.spill/july.5.html
Let’s get this mess cleaned up.
Hello people out there. I figured I’d give this whole WordPress thing a spin as opposed to my Blogger account. So far, so good.
So, I could start out my blog by telling you a little bit about me. But if you’re reading this, chances are you already know what you need to know. So, what I’m going to do is tell you what my blog “Spinning” is about.
My old blog was about “shoebox moments”. This one is too but it’s a more open forum. This is the place where I’m going to tell you about all things Ashleigh. Some things may seem random, others completely unnecessary to your life. This blog will be much like my life, spinning around from topic to topic, place to place.
Entries will vary from the sporadic to daily. I have to be inspired to write my thoughts. It’s better than forcing them upon the keys of my laptop.
Alright folks, I hope you enjoy this adventure we’re about to go on together.
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